If you met me in real life or read this blog from about April 2012 on, you’d probably never know I had 2 knee surgeries in 2011. I don’t have knee pain, I don’t limp and am not impeded in almost any activity which is AWESOME. I can do all of the things I used to do and more.
But I did have knee surgeries. Two of them that forced me to crutches for 3 months total. I lost my most of the muscle I’d enjoyed for years and years of volleyball, running and generally being active. I was strong and I was fit, something I didn’t appreciate that until I didn’t have it anymore.
After I was given the ‘all clear’ after surgery and crutches, I vowed that after my wedding a few months later, I’d start focusing on getting strength back. I signed up for fitmixer bootcamp. I broke out my kettlebell at home. I looked into the fitness classes at my gym…but had piss-poor follow through on all of it. I signed up for races, plotted my training schedule on my calendar with ‘strength and stretch’ days that quickly became ‘stretch and rest’ days.
For the past 2 years, I’ve skated through fitness. I’ve focused solely on running and have given that only a half-assed effort. I could be really frustrated with myself for not putting the time in to ‘get after it’ or ‘just do it’. I’ve written a few posts about recommitting myself and spent even more time thinking about how to get back on the bandwagon. ‘If I’d just get up earlier’ or ‘why can’t you squeeze in a run at lunch?!’
But the truth is, I’m not mad at myself. I spent the last year NOT stressing about getting the right exercise or eating the right foods because I was enjoying the moments with my brand-new husband. I worked long hours on a pretty major work project that didn’t afford me the luxury of running at lunch. Until last month, I shared a car (and long work commute) with my husband, squashing most flexibility to do my own thing, ever.
You may read those as excuses – and maybe they are – but I see them as a recognition and acceptance of how I spent the last year of my life. Getting ‘the old me’ and my fitness back was not high on my list; I could do the things I wanted to do without working too hard – I’ve been only mediocre but I was only giving a mediocre effort. You get out what you put in.
Then I demoed Functional Fitness with Qi Extreme and met Chris Lindley. I loved his philosophy and his gym and knew I wanted to be part of his operation. It reminded me of being on a sports team – a coach to push you harder, teammates to suffer through and support you and everyone working hard to get better. His gym is about pushing through, even when it’s hard. It’s about giving more, even when you’re tired. It’s about working hard together, building community and supporting each other. And it’s AWESOME.
Then I ran a half marathon that, while not my best finish time ever, felt pretty darn good – despite the mediocre training. And I was inspired to work hard again and push myself to be better than I have been for the past 2 years. I was inspired to get off my butt and put in the time and effort.
From the moment I stepped into Qi Extreme, I knew it would be a place that would challenge me and get me back into ’fighting shape’ (as Rachel says). So I emailed Chris. He emailed me back. We struck a deal – I’d attend and honestly review and blog about his classes and he’d let me attend classes at no cost.
I’m in the right place, mentally, physically and situationally, to start making the changes I’ve been meaning to make the past 2 years. To gain back my strength so running/skiing/backpacking/everything is less challenging. To clean up my diet and get back to basics. To go to sleep earlier so getting up earlier isn’t such a drag. To make all around better choices. (I guess this is growing up?!)
So! This is a topic that’s been on my little ol’ brain for a while. I guess I’m not really trying to get ‘the old me’ back (because, at the core, Past Lynne and Present Lynne are really pretty similar) but just to pull elements of Past Lynne (making time for fitness, working hard, eating smarter, drinking less beers) into Present Lynne.
What does this mean for you, my friends who read this here blog? Well, over the coming weeks, you can expect to see posts about Qi classes and about packing healthier lunches if they’re worth sharing. I want to share about the #in30 group on Twitter and how we’re moving more and drinking more water this month. I plan to share my successes and failures. I’m excited to be working hard and eating consciously again – and I know checking in on my blog will help keep me accountable through this delicate ‘creating new habits’ period.
Cheers! (with my Nalgene full of water, not a glass full of wine.)