We parked our Subaru in the parking lot of our new home on Saturday afternoon and said a silent prayer that the inside was just as we remembered it. Well, almost as we remembered it; Alex remembered a slight smell of ‘cat pee’, I only remembered the open, spacious apartment and so much natural light.
Taking a deep breath, I nervously opened the security door of the old house we would be calling home and we climbed the 3 flights of stairs to the top unit. Like kids on Christmas, we excitedly raced up our entry way stairs, anxious to see what was at the top. It was just as good as we remembered and no cat pee smell.
UHaul was closed on Sunday so we spent the weekend living out of the same packs we’d used for the past 2.5 weeks and slept on our camping sleeping pads, just as we did in Denver after we’d boxed up our belongings. For dinner, we walked up the street to try our new neighborhood restaurants and made notes of places to visit for special occasions because the grad school budget means more eating at home, less eating out.
As we enjoyed our last meals of ‘vacation’/moving, the reality of it all sank in. We’re in a new and unfamiliar city, alone. Just the two of us. And while I’d done this a handful of times – moving to Atlanta in college for a co-op job, moving to Denver with a very limited network – it felt scarier, heavier this time. Maybe because, at 29, I’m thinking about my/our future and my career more seriously, maybe because we’re taking on a new debt and reducing our income, maybe it’s the massive lifestyle change, maybe because it’s been 6 years since I’ve done this and I’m just out of practice.
But as I felt my mind start to venture to the dark side, I turned to my husband, my person of 9 years, and smiled. Unlike those past moves, I’m *not* doing this alone. We’re doing it together. We are renting an apartment that’s already my most favorite space I’ve lived, we get to explore a new city and part of the country and challenge ourselves in ways we can’t while living in Denver for 6 years.
There’s sure to be ups and downs as we navigate a new life chapter but, as sappy as it is, I know that as long as we’re doing it together, we’ll thrive.